Close Call
As a child my dad and I were closer than ever. He was more than just my dad he was my bestfriend, hero, and diary. I could tell him anything! He knows me more than I know myself. When I tripped or fell my dad was there to save me. He taught me how to color in the lines. He taught me how to pick myself back up when I got knocked down. Whenever I got in trouble by mom he had my back. He taught me math. When I was 8 he taught me to be humble. He gave me my courage and my strength; he taught me how to handle large amounts of pain. My dad was the best because he brought sunshine to every rain. He spoiled me rotten with candy and pretty pink things. But when my dad moved far away I hated him. My best friend was gone and I would never get to see him again. I felt incomplete. Our household was now broken. When he told me he started a family I let jealousy and animosity empower me. I tried to erase my dad completely. 2 hour phone calls turned into 1 minute “Hi” and “Bye”. Before he left he told me the distance would never change us, but our bond was rusting away.
He reached out to me but it was too late. I refused to let my dad back in. I failed to forgive and reconnect. I failed to realize that I was hurting myself. I missed out on getting to know my new family. I missed out on our father daughter talks. I missed Father’s Day and birthdays. And the worst part was that I desperately missed him. Failing to reconnect with my dad was one of my biggest failures because I wasted precious time. Now there’s a gap between my father and I that I’ll never get back. I regret my mistakes but it taught me not to let my emotions become a permanent thing. Some day I hope to make things right with my dad so we can catch back up on things.
He reached out to me but it was too late. I refused to let my dad back in. I failed to forgive and reconnect. I failed to realize that I was hurting myself. I missed out on getting to know my new family. I missed out on our father daughter talks. I missed Father’s Day and birthdays. And the worst part was that I desperately missed him. Failing to reconnect with my dad was one of my biggest failures because I wasted precious time. Now there’s a gap between my father and I that I’ll never get back. I regret my mistakes but it taught me not to let my emotions become a permanent thing. Some day I hope to make things right with my dad so we can catch back up on things.
He reached out to me but it was too late. I refused to let my dad back in. I failed to forgive and reconnect. I failed to realize that I was hurting myself. I missed out on getting to know my new family. I missed out on our father daughter talks. I missed Father’s Day and birthdays. And the worst part was that I desperately missed him. Failing to reconnect with my dad was one of my biggest failures because I wasted precious time. Now there’s a gap between my father and I that I’ll never get back. I regret my mistakes but it taught me not to let my emotions become a permanent thing. Some day I hope to make things right with my dad so we can catch back up on things.
He reached out to me but it was too late. I refused to let my dad back in. I failed to forgive and reconnect. I failed to realize that I was hurting myself. I missed out on getting to know my new family. I missed out on our father daughter talks. I missed Father’s Day and birthdays. And the worst part was that I desperately missed him. Failing to reconnect with my dad was one of my biggest failures because I wasted precious time. Now there’s a gap between my father and I that I’ll never get back. I regret my mistakes but it taught me not to let my emotions become a permanent thing. Some day I hope to make things right with my dad so we can catch back up on things.
